Made some new userpics. I think this one is my favorite. OH LAWDY I'VE TURNED EMO

As for me? I dunno guys - I'm not good at this whole putting my feelings out there thing. I've never really been comfortable talking about how I feel or what's going on in my life but I guess here goes.

I haven't been happy. Nothing bad's happened, I'm not sick, I'm just... unhappy. I haven't felt like working on Shades of Green, I haven't felt like going to school, I haven't felt like doing anything. You know it's bad when you don't even feel like going to bed. I'm just not feeling it lately and it sucks. If I knew what brought this on I would probably feel better about it, but that's the worst part: I don't really have a reason to be depressed. Nothing bad's happened... I guess, in the end, that's just it - Nothing's happened, period. I'm in a rut. I've tired myself out. I just don't feel like doing anything anymore.

I feel like I'm wasting my time at school. I can't say that without sounding like a cocky jackass but it's just how I feel. I draw. That's my thing. I wanna do art. But here I am suffering through Biology twice a week because it's a required class for an AA. It's bullshit. I don't need to know the difference between prokaryotic and eukaryotic cell division. It's the most brutally soul-sucking thing I've ever subjected myself to.

Last semester I took Drawing and Computer Art and Art Appreciation and, gasp! I actually LEARNED things that will HELP me - only to find out all of them were considered "electives" as part of the art degree I was going for, and that I still need like 40 credit hours under Science and Math and Humanities and WHY, GOD.

I wouldn't call it being lazy - I've been doing everything required of me - it's just... I really don't feel like doing anything. I know I'm belaboring the point but there's really no better words to describe how I feel right now. I just don't feel like it.

I don't even feel like typing anymore. I'm gonna go make mac and cheese.